Expecting something that will be very impossible to happen
Hello, folks! I was planning to write this topic in Indonesian but I thought it will help me to improve my other language because I still need to learn more about using English. Honestly, technology helped me with this because I no longer needed to open a thick dictionary to find vocabulary that I didn’t know. so, thank you translator haha. The main problem is that I am not good at grammar. So, hope you guys understand.
Okay, let’s get into the discussion about the title I wrote above. Anyway, I wrote this copy at 2.15 AM. My sleep was messy and I was always awake until 5 am. In situations like this, I often think about the things that have happened. Why could it happen? what if I should be like this? what if I didn’t do that? and there are many other questions about how? yes, I know it’s a question of regret. I’m still in the healing phase of a broken heart with someone. If you read the previous writing, you will understand that a lot of sad writing that I have written. So, some days I become a stupid girl. Falling in love is the cause. When I’m heartbroken with someone I’m going to be a crazy girl. Maybe it’s because I love him too much. I always tried to contact him the last few days until I realized, that such an attitude I always do whenever I get heartbroken.
I was scared of losing someone. Yes, I think you are like that too, especially the people you love. Attitudes like this should be eliminated. Because people who leave with hurt and give injuries do not deserve to linger in the mind. The other problem is that I am afraid to go back “alone”. Do you know what it’s like to stop talking to the person you’re talking to every day? Always accompanying every day? Laughing together and making weird jokes to keep the conversation going? It’s an intense thing to do. then suddenly no longer done and confused about what to do. Of course, strange. Because the vibe is no longer the same. This is a difficult thing.
I think missing someone who is always there in our days is normal. When someone is missing from the life we have to give up. Maybe giving up someone can be done, but all memories cannot be erased in the mind. Fool yourself into always thinking “he’s the best for me”, “I’m sure he’ll come back to me” or “he still loves me” or “do I have to do something to get him interested in me again?” and more. For some people, such words of affirmation have a positive and helpful impact. But, what if we already knew the reality that would happen would be very impossible, but we still think like that? Including fooling yourself, right?. It is better to find new people or stay alone until he/she can appreciate you. Forgetting is difficult, but keep fighting until you let go. Life must go on. Do busy things until the mind is no longer centered on “himself/herself”.
Don’t fool yourself and hurt yourself for things that certainly won’t happen. It doesn’t make you develop. It’s hard for sure. But over time it will be acceptable.
So, thank you to those of you who read up to this sentence. This is my mind in the early hours of the morning. Don’t know who to tell. So, I decided to share it here.
